I'm feeling the footsteps of that demon again. The thing that ruins every single project of mine, no matter how well it's going.
There's this odd thing I have about me, where I like to start projects, and I get a rush from doing it, but the longer a project takes me to do, the more ideas for other games build up, crushing my desire to work on my current project. It gets so bad that I start to feel trapped by my current project, and then quickly grow to resent it. It's a strange, contradictory conflict. Even though I still want to finish it, I come to hate working on it.
This is one of the major reasons I haven't put out a serious project in the past, yet. Because this always happens. It always gets stomped out by my own ability to come up with ideas. And it's happening again. I can feel it.
I have no idea what to do about it, though. I've tried everything, short of medicating myself. I've tried taking a break, it only speeds up the process. I've tried working on other projects, it speeds it up even greater. The one thing that slows it down is the ability to work on other things related to my current project. This is the first time I've ever had plenty to do, and yet, even that could not completely stop the process. I'm going to try to slog through this, though, because I still want to finish this project. I can't live in the shadow of this demon my entire life.